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This I know to be true: YOUR job is to decide exactly what you want from life. That is your job. Then it is your brain’s job, or the universes, whatever you believe in, it’s their job to guide you to the right circumstances where you’ll find exactly what you have set out to find. But they can’t guide you unless you know for sure what you want to find. So now to my actual story: End of February this year I decided to go back to Berlin after having spent the winter in Sweden. There was something going back that made me feel … anxious. Sad.. I did not want to go back. I knew I loved Berlin, I loved the city and my people, but it was the thought of going back to the apartment that made me feel off.. I realised, the girl that moved into that apartment beginning of 2020 was no longer here. I have evolved, a lot, and so suddenly my energy did no longer align with the energy in the apartment. It held me back. 
I decided, my only goal and vision right now is to find myself an apartment in Berlin that not only aligns with who I am now, but even more aligns with the woman I want to be in 6 months from now. I know that woman, I have created her. I know how she talks and walks, how she behaves and how she feels. To the story is that the release date for my new album AND new book was set to March 26th. That was an important date for me because releasing this album and releasing this book, I realised, was no longer just about sharing my work with the world, it had grown into the ritual of releasing the happenings in my life that made me create this album and this book. Releasing the sadness, the heaviness, the people, the stories, and most of all, letting go of that chapter. I literally needed to move into a new chapter of my life. Mentally and physically. I had 1 month to find a new apartment, and not just any apartment, but my ULTIMATE apartment, the one I envisioned for myself, now! Everyone who’s lived in a big city knows that finding a new apartment in 4 weeks is pretty much impossible. Well, this is where the magic happens again. I knew exactly what sort of apartment I was looking for. I knew the size, the area, the rent, the energy from the landlord… I went to 40 flat viewings in 15 days. I applied for 20 of them, I got 4 of them, but something felt … not 100%. Then I simply walked into my apartment. I knew it, the second I entered. This is my new home. The landlady who showed me around kept talking about that one summer she went to Sweden and within just a few hours I had my new apartment secured. This feels like magic, but it’s really not. I’d like to call it pure science. Psychology. Chemistry, even, it’s about neutrons and plus and minus and all that. See, what I believe is, the second I walked into the apartment I knew it was my new home because it looked exactly like the apartment I had visioned for myself. When I felt that, so strongly, my energy shifted. I stopped being a potential tenant, and instead started walking and talking like the future tenant of this apartment. Maybe the landlady didn’t notice, but she picked up on it. The human psyche is very predictable. You know there are those experiments that show how people mirror each other’s body language without thinking about it. If you stand in front of someone talking and he scratches his head, you will most likely raise your hand and scratch your head, without even noticing. So the landlady mirrored my energy and I felt it, she talked to me like the person who would move in. You really don’t have to believe in this way of moving through the world. It’s not a belief. It’s not a religion. It’s not even really spirituality. It’s being in control of your own future. Directing the energy to the right places. Directing your eyes to where you want to go. Where you want to be in 6 months? How do you feel when you wake up in 6 months? Where are you? What are you wearing? Who are you with? Don’t just end up there, make sure you’ll be somewhere you really want to be.