GOD's will

I work in GOD's will since 22 years. I didn't knew GOD until the day I decided me to make a suicide and I should do it for real and not as a cry for help. But an higher Priest from heaven knew I should make a suicide and show up like a real person in my home and told me about my childhood that was full of abuse and he told me things that had been secret for me. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf9oDHXrAtAWyt61h1BSWxg When the higher priest was gone came GOD ELOHIM and talked to me about my future. I didn't see HIM, I only heard HIM and what HE told me have I done even if it sounded impossible. I get visits of spirits from heaven in my podcast episodes.